I was awakened by anticipation early this morning. This happens quite often to me. Sometimes it is in anticipation of a particular event, other times it is simply because there is a new day dawning and I am eager to be a part of it. I love my life more and more each day. I have not always felt this way. I have shadows in my mind of horrible events from the war, of a tragic first marriage, of loneliness as a teen, of losing my mother to death at age nine, of being raised in poverty, of having no Christmas to celebrate in my home as a child, of always being broke, of losing my children out of my life, and many, many more. I used to dote on these dark times. I used to relive them in my mind on a daily basis. These thoughts caused me depression, angry thoughts and physical problems. I felt that death would be easier than life. I was a wreck waiting to happen. But it would surprise many who know me now to think I was ever in such a state because of my current demeanor. And it is not a facade. I am truly happier than I have ever been in my entire life. I feel as if the veil of guilt and shame from my own past has been lifted, burned and buried. It is great to have people in my life who love me unconditionally, in spite of my imperfections. These people, you people, inspire me to be my best, to change my attitude for the better, to give as I receive. Because of the sincere love that is given to me from my wife, my family and so many friends I truly look forward to life. If you ever see someone who is in the dark do your best to shine light into their lives. You just may save them as you helped saved me.
Love you all.
Dennis
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