Too Small To Be Loved

"But I am a worm and not a man, scorned by mankind and despised by the people." -Psalm 22:6

"The more you think that way, the more people will feel the negative vibes from you and your body language. I never trusted anyone even family members, they all got tired of my depressive mood and did not enjoy being around Mr Misery. I looked pained most of the time, until I came to the realization that I had almost no one to confide in. It was very lonely and sad to see others with so much family and friends to enjoy company with.

It took a total stranger to make me realize what it was I was doing to my self. I will never forget being told.

(You have to love yourself and be your own best friend first before you can expect others to like you and be friends with you.)

When I started seeing the good in me and what I had to offer others, I felt I had a good chance at surviving the life that I felt caused me so much misery. I began selling the good of myself to others and some have bought into my friendship. From those friendships I have connected with others and has been growing like a pyramid scheme."
-Anonymous 

  I came across the above article this morning and was reminded as to how often we all are subject to falling into self pity and/or utter hopelessness; especially when things are not going smoothly with some personal aspect of our life. It could be our health, our children, our marriage or significant other. Perhaps it is that seemingly never-ending negative situation on the job or you are just tired of living from paycheck to paycheck.  I know just how insignificant we can seem in such a big and busy world; not to mention this vast universe.  Sometimes I have felt as if God was watching me go through my tests and trials I wondered why He didn't just step in and fix it for me. I'm going to be real with you; sometimes I get tired  of trying to be "Mr. Right Kinda Guy" and I don't beat myself up when I do. Not anymore. Only a fool will describe himself as perfect. I'm glad that there are times when I do get angry. I don't even go to church every Sunday. Sometimes I want nothing but peace around me and no madness. God, the years I have wasted trying to be someone that I wasn't because someone wanted me to be like someone they felt they wanted me to be. But guess what? That was all for nothing because people don't always know what they want their own darn selves.

  It's time to rejoice in the God within us. We have been created with a uniqueness which makes us more valuable than any Rembrandt or Picasso painting. To those who love us, the mere sound of our voices are more melodious than a Beethoven symphony.  

"What are mere mortals that you should think about them, human beings that you should care for them?" Psalm 8:4

  So, please, go on being you today and always. Not that mean, depressed, isolated person that the world has forced you to become, but be that full-of-love person that you desire to be daily. Be real and I guarantee you will make it to the other side.
  Love yourself today,
  Dennis