Fighting Through Fear

 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Phillipians 4:6 (NIV)

 It wasn't easy getting out of bed this morning. I had a relatively quiet evening and retired before 11:00 P.M. however; the first of the month is always a busy time for me. I had sat down and worked out my necessary monthly expenses earlier this week and I was almost eager to get started. I was so enthusiastic that I nearly forsook my morning walk; telling myself that my plans were too important to delay.  As I was making my bed I was convicted by my decision making process and concluded that it was better- no, necessary, that I walk. My walks have proven to be very therapeutic for me. Not only is my circulation and weight loss improving but the time alone in the fresh morning air, the singing and trilling of birds, and the scenery throughout my neighborhood produces a calming effect that creates a conduit to God. In no time at all I find myself calm, clear-headed, highly reflective, and thankful. I am able to work out so many things as I walk and talk with God. Fears which continually press upon my soul are met with a strong, spiritual defiance and I feel myself smile. What are bills but something that need to be paid and by grace I am able to do so.  As I force-walk past the stately homes within my neighborhood I am clearly able to see the blessing of being able to live in such a place. I don't deserve anything because of what I have done. Sure, I dedicated over 20 years of my life to serving my country and I try to treat others with respect as much as humanly possible; even the very difficult ones. And as often as I attempt to bury some of my past I still have moments when I reflect on painful events in my life.  I am aware that the enemy desires to sift me; to tear me down and cause me to relinquish the favor God has placed upon my life, but I can proudly say that by God's grace I am still here.  When an animal is backed into a corner it will rise up against the most fierce adversary and stand and fight. We, as people, are no different.  When situations in our lives aggressively confront us we do not lie down and surrender, but we call upon whatever strength we have within ourselves and from on high and we come out swinging. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS AN EASY LIFE.

  After my morning "devotional walk" I was able to see my path more clearly. There is a calmness in my soul that will not allow me to worry about life's circumstances or the situations I am now facing. I continue to pray for my friends and family whom I have communicated with throughout the week. We sincerely love one another and when one bleeds the other feels their pain, but we are touching and agreeing for success through prayer.
 Have a great day and do not fear.
 I love you all.
 Dennis