The weather has been bitterly cold this Winter. I greatly enjoyed being at home and listening to music and watching a couple of movies. It's something I have not been motivated to do for some time, (even though my therapist and several friends have been encouraging me to find a way to do the things I used to love doing). I also decided to do a little bit out and around town today. I went to an early movie and later enjoyed a good lunch. Not being ready to call it a day, I continued on and perused a few department stores; not looking for anything in particular, but I find shopping, in general, to be a blessing and a great comfort. It also helps me to not to dwell on unpleasant thoughts.
Two families I personally know have experienced a passing of a loved one this week. On the other hand a good friend has celebrated a birthday on this day. Whether we live or die, life goes on. I have learned that in the area of relationships, as well. Some relationships live and some die but life must still go on. Several quaint occurrences have encouraged me so much this week. The promise of newness is so close it is as a sweet aroma in my nostrils. I am purposely holding several things close to my chest for I have had to shift my perception of some of my surroundings; but with me what you see is what you get. I am so proud of the distance I have come these past few months. I am especially humbled by what God has shown to me and done for me throughout all of this. I haven't loved myself like this is a long while.
Beginning to blog again feels different this time around. I received a couple of phone calls as I began to type and I was glad I was able to thwart the conversations because in the past they would have caused me much grief and pain. Instead, I am looking forward to the dinner I will cook this evening as I watch the game. There has been a vast amount of snow in my life as of late. It had me covered heavily; so much that I often felt petrified, unable to move, smile or find any joy in being alive. But I am glad I didn't let the freezing cold paralyze me. I am thankful for friends who came with their shovels and torches and scraped the snow from my lawn and showed me that the grass underneath was yet green.
I encourage my friends who are spending a vast amount of time being overly concerned about many things, (If able, read the story of Mary and Martha in Luke 10:39-42), to let go and let God do what He does which is always perfect and right. Stay warm, travel safely and spread love.
Dennis
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