I was alive and still maintained the full articulation of my limbs; although not as agile as I did the year before. I will be the last to complain as to any state I am in for I have seen both poverty and prosperity and will never boast about either. I did experience a mixture of emotions concerning my birthday before it actually occurred. I reflected on so many things such as family, friends, broken relationships, re-newed acquaintances, God's plan for me and my own desires for my life. I eventually was able to shake off the creeping cloud of despair and even found it possible to let go of the disdain that was in my heart towards certain situations I had experienced (Trust me, this is a daily feat for I have seen some things in my short life). If I can say anything about my present emotional state I will say that I am in love; in love with those who occupy this dwelling with me, in love with life which has taken me, (and continues to lead me), on a journey filled with lesson after lesson. I am blessed to be attached to others outside of my family of origin who are not ashamed to reciprocate their love because they have learned that we are all but a small part of God's larger plan. I receive an overwhelming love from both near and afar and I am so blessed to have recognized this fact before I am in the thralls of old age and impotence.
Wonderful and fantastic things are occurring daily and simultaneously all around us. What a pity to be so congested with hatred, envy, bitterness and strife that this beauty is missed. When I was a child I sang a song in chorus which said,
"No man is an island, no man walks alone. Each man's joy is joy to me, each man's grief is my own".
I cannot begin to express how I pray for an abundance; not that I may splurge it upon my own self, but so that I may bring an end to so much of the worry, pain,and suffering of so many of the Lord's children, my heartfelt friends, who are sincerely in need. I believe that within the "Body of Christ" we have everything we need. There should be no need for any of us to be in want or need because we should be our brother's keeper. I believe that the reason many of us do not give is because we have been jilted or taken advantage of by someone at sometime and we believe that others who approach us are only feigning hardship. I, too, have fallen into this mode of thinking at one time or another, but I have renewed my vow to God to try to be the best that I can to His people. I'm no fool, either. I also have asked Him to give me an eye to spot deception.
There remains a need to confirm our faith daily and we can do this by being strong in our convictions, to be real in our friendships, and by not allowing ourselves to be so "holy" that we become a doormat for all who desire to spit on us again and again. Even Jesus knew when enough was enough. (read John 2:13-16).
My 54th year had a great beginning. I have just who and what I am supposed to have and all that is to come will be brought in God's own time.
Have a blessed and exciting weekend.
Dennis
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