"Yet man is born to trouble as surely as sparks fly upward." Job 5:7
The sky is foggy, extremely overcast. I am up early. I took a prescription sleep-aid last night so that I could get some sleep; a reprieve from my surging dreams. But it rarely works, for I am still inundated with a cavalcade of visions; some more of a premonition than merely dreams. They are vivid, my dreams. I see them clearly and in color. I can feel, taste, and smell my environment and I am only assuaged when I awaken; however, I remain pensive, watchful, and vigilant in my waking hours.
I relegated myself to a sabbatical from Facebook for personal reasons. I have a penchant for expressing my innermost thoughts on paper. I tell myself that it is a form of therapy for me, but the truth is that I often feel compelled to speak on certain things due to the belief that someone may need assurance or comfort or confirmation in a certain situation. No, I do not profess to be a prophet in any way but I do believe that there are things I say that are inspired by a higher power.
I looked at the news this morning and I see tornadoes heading towards Birmingham and Tuscaloosa, Alabama. The Republican debates are surging to worrisome proportions, Iran is acting up again and I fear there may be a bombing there soon which will lead to another war, and people are dying everywhere. What point am I making? That life goes on, whether we live or die, and while we yet live on this earth we must do our part in it as we are assigned to do by God.
I am still on my sabbatical. No, I am not covered in sackcloth and ash; nor am I sitting under a Juniper tree. My meditation comes throughout my days. I do not verbally commune with anyone concerning my innermost thoughts, but I speak to God at all times. The greatest temptation has been to be still and allow things to unfold as they are ordained and to not make comment of them. I am also being introspective concerning myself; as to why I pull away from those who offend me and build walls. I have learned that pain is a part of life and I continue to find ways to deal with it. Sometimes the Lord is my only friend and it is because of Him I can prevail.
This day my thoughts and prayers go out to my dearest friends who are seeking direction, answers, and comfort in their lives. To those who are seemingly alone in the decisions they are forced to make, please know that you are not alone.
"Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us..." Hebrews 12:1
You are not alone. Not only is God near you and in you but those loved ones who have gone on before you are looking down from heaven and cheering you on. Your parents are proud of you. Your brother and sister are rooting for your successes. Your son and your daughter are lingering in your heart, hoping that you still feel their love and their presence. My fervent prayer on this day is that you find contentment in your being; that you allow grace to compel you to continue to fight the good fight of faith. And by all means do remember; It's not all about you.
I love you all,
Dennis
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